I have a problem. I am a really good goalie. so i play goalie.

When my team is winning by a lot We have our other goalies play. So i play attack but i am not very good at attack because of my stick. I can play the position very well( i no where to stand and where to pass to and all that), but i cant really do that cuz i play goalie all the time and my regular stick pocket looks like the depth of a womens pocket( its really shallow).. What do i do. I cant do ground balls catch or pass with my stick. Not anything. I am 89% sure its the stick. I no im not the best attackmen but i no i am better than how i am playing lately. The stick is hard mesh so it is hard to get a pocket.. I waas thinking that i could get soft mesh even tho it is really bad. I want to get this because it seems like it can get a deep pocket without playing with it a lot. ( get a deep pocket once and it will stay deep unlike hard) It seems like it would be easier to catch with passing maybe bad but i am sure i could fix that. What do u guys think? I think its my stick not me. Seriously

Any other tips on my situation would be well appreciated. If u guys didnt understand wat i was saying ask me for clarification or heres a overview:
1. cant do anything with my stick cuz no pocket.
2. Tell me about soft mesh please.